I've been wondering what Eve experianced when she carried her first child.. Thinking about how Adam felt. When you think about all the times people have had to truely rely on God and God alone, this would be #1. All it says is Adam knew Eve, and then she bore Cain. No in between. I mean, was she watching her belly grow, thinking a pig was going to come out? What about when she was going into labor? This all happened after the fall, and of course we know that Adam and Eve still had communication with God but to what extent? The reasoning behind these questions probably has a lot to do with the fact that there are like 12 pregnant women at church, most of whom are having their babies. I've been extremely... Jealous. The idea of the Americanized suburbian family scares the beedevil out of me. Having four plus kids, and a house that's identical to our neighbors. Wednesday afternoons out by the soccer fields. I feel like I have a very strange perception on life.There should be more to it than raising kids. I don't believe that that is the point of our exhistance, yet, there is this longing deep down in my heart to know the joy of what it feels like to hold a life inside of my own. Sappy, I know, but too terribly true. I also want to travel the world, and keep being completely independent. I want to run away from everything and live a life on the road - semi similar to the guy in into the wild - how he just lives place to place - but I want to live country to country.. Maybe with a husband, or a best friend so you have someone to share it with, but experiancing life outside of our narrow minded americanized idea about society. I've been starting to wonder if it is a good thing our economy is going into the ruin. Maybe God should just re-flood everything. Start over.
I've said it before and I will say it again. We are raising up a generation of unattended to childeren. Parents aren't ready for the task. I've heard three times this week about people getting pregnant that didn't mean or want to. I hate that idea. It angers me. I think so highly of people who pay attention to children near by. Who recognize that they are there. Anyways, my whole point in this is what is our purpose? How are we supposed to live our lives?
1John 1:-1-4
1That which was from the beginning, which we have heard, which we have seen with our eyes, which we have looked at and our hands have touched—this we proclaim concerning the Word of life. 2The life appeared; we have seen it and testify to it, and we proclaim to you the eternal life, which was with the Father and has appeared to us. 3We proclaim to you what we have seen and heard, so that you also may have fellowship with us. And our fellowship is with the Father and with his Son, Jesus Christ. 4We write this to make our[a] joy complete.
